Dear Kev, This is pain now mate. Absolute and irrefutable. We'll never recover. Your absence is overwhelming; an insight into the impact you had on everyone's lives. I don't think anyone who met you could have a bad word to say about you. I just wish I'd spent more time with you. You were/are sincerely loved. Your family and friends ache every day you are gone. You only gave me humour and wise advice for so many years so I can't cope with these new intrusive feelings of sadness and loss I struggle with each day you are gone. You were devoted to Sarah, Jack and Eva, a loyal fiend and a genuinely lovely man to be around. Your presence made everything better for those in your company. What has happened to you makes no sense and there's an anger which is impossible to contain. Words fail to grasp what we are all experiencing now in your absence. Love you mate, Buds X